Road Trip Epiphanies

May 17, 2012 – Thursday

I had to be on my way to Sta. Rosa, Laguna for some appointments. My challenge was to get there at around lunch time without getting lost.

That’s how it is with how we live our lives.

There is a definite destination and we are bound by time. The challenge is to get to where we’re supposed to be without getting lost.

“For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, that each one may receive what is due him for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad.” -2 Corinthians 5:10, NIV

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I already was given instructions the night before. I had two options – take a bus from Market Market going to Ayala and then get on a van going to Balibago or go to Guadalupe, take the MRT, get off at Buendia, and take a bus from there. I was told the latter was better choice so that’s what I did.

There will always be options but choices have to be made, even when you are unsure. It only takes faith. I’m quoting the album description I wrote on Wednesday here: “The choices we make everyday lead us to either grow in faith or live in fear. Allow your faith to be stretched. It’s the only way to go and the only way to grow.”

“Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.” -Hebrews 11:1, NLT

Getting to Buendia was easy. Finding the bus to Balibago was a totally different story. There was no bus station and the buses that passed by where I was standing (under the HEAT of the Manila sun) were either going to Alabang, Ayala LRT, and Dasmarinas. I didn’t think that would be much of a challenge because I can easily call the friend I will be meeting in Sta. Rosa…or so I thought. I only had to dial his number to find out that he is out of coverage area.

It wouldn’t be easy. There will be roadblocks, hurdles, detours – anything that would test your faith. The enemy will come to steal, kill, and destroy your joy, your peace, your passion, your determination to get to your destination. But giving up should never be an option. The greater the trial, the greater the testimony!

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” -James 1:2-4, NIV

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I smiled. Okay, that may sound weird because I was standing alone at the bus stop with people around me but I did. And then I said a silent prayer: “Okay Lord, we will have to figure this out together. Just You and me this time. Please speak audibly. Thank you.”

It’s not about you. Giving up will never be an option when we get a clear understanding of how everything in, of, and about us is only sustained by His grace; that we are living in and by His mercies day after day after day. 

“Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.” -Lamentations 3:22, NIV

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I then remembered my first option. I got on a bus going to Alabang which was supposed to pass by Ayala LRT as well. I was praying the whole time: “Lord, bahala ka na. Wag mo akong ililigaw please!” I had my earphones on then. The lyrics of the song that was playing then still rings in my head up until now:

You promised me
You’ll never leave
You promised me
I’m never forsaken
I believe
Goodness and mercy will follow me,
Surrounding me where I go
Everywhere that I go

You Lord are a shield around me everywhere
Everywhere that I go
Your grace and love surround me everywhere
Everywhere…

(He never fails to do that every time – speaking to me through song lyrics.)

His promises always hold true. When He said He would never leave us nor forsake us, He means it. When He said that he is our shield, our strength, our comfort, our refuge, our salvation, our deliverer – He means it.

“God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?” -Numbers 23:19, NIV

A few minutes later, my friend from Sta. Rosa called.

Chris: Hello, asan ka na?

Me: Good question. Yan rin mismo ang tanong ko.

I knew he couldn’t help me just yet so I told him I’ll try to figure something out. I also knew I was lost.  I realized that the place I was supposed to get off at was the MRT and NOT the LRT station. I was still on the bus then. And then I felt like I needed to transfer to the seat on another side of the bus. I didn’t want to but I did so anyway.

Listen and obey. Asking God about what He wants us to do is one thing, obeying it is another. We can fast and pray all we want, hear Him audibly in the process, and even get signs when we ask for it, but if we are not quick to move our feet when He tells us to, we won’t be getting anywhere.

“For merely listening to the law doesn’t make us right with God. It is obeying the law that makes us right in his sight.” – Romans 2:13, NLT

And then I saw two bus terminals on different sides of the road along Taft. The bus I was on was moving slowly because of the traffic so I can see the signboards on the buses that are bound for Calamba and other provinces. We passed by another bus terminal and to my surprise, one of the buses there had Balibago on its signboard!

I literally jumped from my seat and got off the bus stop. A few seconds later, I found myself seated comfortably on the bus going to Sta. Rosa, in awe of how I was already on my way to where I’m supposed to go when a few minutes earlier, I totally had no idea where I was and where the bus I was in would actually end up taking me.

Works without faith is futile. Faith without works is dead.  

“It is good to grasp the one and not let go of the other. The man who fears God will avoid all extremes.” – Ecclesiastes 7:18

At the end of the day, I have found this to be more than true:

“The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me.”
- Psalm 23:1-4 


Just sharing…

An afterthought about my friend Ana’s statement:

God is a creative god.

We may fall so in love with other people’s love stories that we tend to want the stories for ourselves. But God is NOT into plagiarism. Your story will be different but will never be less special. Just you wait.

I’d rather have it Your way

“Teach me your way, O Lord,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.”

-Psalm 86:11-

There is no wisdom apart from Yours. If I was meant to do just that, then I’d have to go no further.  Because to do what is right and just is more acceptable to you than sacrifice (Prov 21:3), I’m sticking to the game plan.

I’d rather have it Your way. :)

Thank You Notes

My Mom and I finally got home from the hospital last night. The four days we spent there would have felt like forever if not for the people who not only stood with us in prayer, but also showed us genuine love and care and concern.

To my Uncle Angelo for rushing to our house when it happened and patiently caring and checking on Mom all through out the ordeal and even arranging for us to get the accomodation we needed in the hospital, thank you ever so much. I know you had to get out of your way a couple of times. No words can describe how thankful I am.

To my dearest friend and sister Angela, thank you for being there with me on what seemed to be one of the most stressful moments in my life. Thank you for buying us dinner, for helping me pack the things we would need and carrying it all the way to the hospital although it was raining like crazy, for staying with me during dinner time, for even assisting my Mom when you saw the need to. Your daily text messages asking me if everything is okay sure reminded me that I was not alone in this. And thank you for extending your help up to the day Mom was finally discharged.

To Dadee Alvin and Momee Che, thank you so much for treating us as part of your family. Thank you for going out of your way to go all the way to Camp Panacan just to visit us. Mama was so happy you came with Fiona. We love you so much!

Bela, thank you for being ever so sweet. My Mom and I are so grateful to you for visiting and for even offering us a ride on the day we were supposed to go home.

Julianne, J-Ann, Chelsea, and Abet – Thank you for offering to come to the hospital to look after my Mom so I can go out and do my chores for a night. Although things did not actually go as planned, I’d say it’s really the thought that counts. I love you guys!
(Abet, sorry about the bananas. :D Chelsea, sorry about the chicken. :D You guys know what I mean. ;)

Ate Mira Joy, thank you for visiting and for letting me ride with you when I had to go to Victoria Plaza to do some errands. And thank you for the powerful prayer you uttered before you left.

Ptr. Alvin and Jaydee, I can’t imagine you guys commuting all the way to the hospital on a work day (and a busy day at that) just to bring some fruits and really pray for my Mom. Thank you so much. I’m so blessed to be part of the Davao team!

Ate Jade and Tina, I’m surprised distance didn’t stop you guys from visiting. Living in Toril and Talomo meant that going to Panacan is like you guys going on a little field trip or excursion of some sort. :D My Mom and I really enjoyed your company! And Tina, the pomelo you brought was superrrr! :D

Nikki, you dropping by every now and then was a breathe of fresh air. Your positivity was put to good use every time. We needed that. Thanks for being an encouragement to me and to my Mom. And thank you for being a nurse to her too. And for the huuuuuuuuge pizza you guys brought for dinner this evening plus the company, thank you!

To Tita Rose, thank you for the flowers! My Mom smiles everytime she sees them. I had them placed in my Mom’s room and she’s enjoying them a lot. Thank you for all the love. It is indeed a blessing to have family around when you need them! I love you Tita! :)

Ana and Rho, the physical therapists, I would like to thank you in advance for whatever it is that you’re planning to do to my Mom. :P Seriously, I am sooo thankful I have friends like you. You guys make the load a little less heavy. Hugs! (Ana, pa-tag na lang ke Rho. Di pa pala kame friends. :D )

To Ate Mu Bi and Luiz, thank you for treating us as part of your family. You guys are a huge blessing to me and my Mom. I can’t wait to see you both and Tha Tha too.

To Brandon, thank you for the encouragements and for remembering us in prayer. I’ll catch up with you soon!

To the rest of the girls from my Victory Group – Joy, Suey, Leslie, Eden, Shyle – to Arianne, Ate Weng, Kuya Josh and Ate Maybelle, Ate Analyn, Ate Joyce, Sheldon, Kuya Tom, En, Zsariz, Joanna, Tita Neneng, Uncle Lito and Tita Joy, Uncle Wilfred, Uncle Romel, Ate Meyette, Ate Julie and Ptr. Jeremy, Dimple and Bem (the list can go on and on) — basically to all those who called, texted, and prayed for and with us, thank you, thank you, and thank you!

This season may have been difficult but there has been much grace. And amids everything I have learned while taking care of my Mom in the hospital and up until now that she’s home recovering, one of the very things that God has emphasized was the gift of friends and family.

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. -James 1:17

Thank you Lord for your healing. Thank you for your provision. Thank you for everything that you have taught me. But more than anything else, thank you for the good and perfect gift of friends and family!