Music of My Heart

•June 24, 2009 • Leave a Comment

I came up with this song about a month ago. This was when I felt like the music that I am singing for Him didn’t sound right and no matter how I tuned my guitar, it seemed to give off the wrong notes. I felt bad. I felt like what I was offering Him was substandard. I longed to give Him the best because that is what He deserved. In my desperation, He reminded me of 1 Samuel 16:7. “For the LORD sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the LORD looks on the heart.”

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When the music seems so loud
and the words are coming out empty
Lord I know You hear beyond the sound

When the song I sing for you
Seem so out of tune
Lord I know You see what’s in my heart

Still I will sing to You
Lord I will sing to You
I will give You praise
to You my voice I raise

I will sing to You
Lord I will sing to You
I will praise You Lord
with the music of my heart

When praising you just feels so hard
Still I will sing for You
Lord I know You see beyond what they see in me

Still I will sing to You
Lord I will sing to You
I will give You praise
to You my voice I raise

I will sing to You
Lord I will sing to You
I will praise You Lord
with the music of my heart

Coda:

I will sing with all my heart
I will praise with all my heart
I will worship you with all that I am
And Lord I will, I will make music with my heart

Uncertain Yet Untroubled

•June 23, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Life is full of uncertainties. But we need not be troubled.

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I once talked with a friend about the future. We were mostly daydreaming then. And then I asked, “Would you prefer that you knew what the future holds?” His answer was a resounding no. He said life would be too boring if that was the case.

It has been two years since that conversation and much has changed. We grew up… matured might be the more appropriate term. We talked about what we wanted to happen but then things did not turn out the way we dreamed it would. Our wants from back then faded through and changed with time. It’s funny how we want something to happen so badly at a particular time and become convinced that we don’t want it to happen at all in another.

I have always been amazed by the fact that there is a future to look forward to. I’m amazed by how many tomorrows there still are and how fast todays happen and how yesterdays continue to fill our memories without really filling them up to the brim. There is one thing I have learned through time though. I realized that when you become too anxious about taking a peak at tomorrow, you will miss the beauty of today, and end up wallowing in regret about the yesterdays that have been wasted.

“Today is a gift. That is why it is called ‘present’.” We should live our lives one day at a time. We should forget the former things and not dwell on the past. And we should face life’s uncertainties with the hope of God living in our hearts.

God has plans of prosperity and hope for us. Our future is totally in His hands so we need not worry. The uncertain should motivate us to go on, to look to the future, and to be excited about what God has in store for us.

I am ending this entry with a beautiful quote:

“Neither go back in fear and misgiving to the past,
nor anxiety and forecasting to the future;
but lie quiet under His hand,
having no will but His.” ~H.E. Manning

…there’s color everywhere

•June 15, 2009 • Leave a Comment

This is the best thing I can come up with to get this blog (somehow) updated. This will contain bits and pieces of what has happened to be the past few days.

No, I won’t be posting the lyrics of some local love song, it that is what you had in mind when you read the title. I just thought it would be fun to use colors when I tell tales. I have talked to people who thought my life is dull. This one should give them a hint that it is, actually, colorful. (Yes, I am trying to sound creative. It would be understandable if you thought it isn’t creative sounding at all. I am writing this with an unsound creative mind.)

So, on with the colors.

Black. My college arts professor was the first person who told me that black is not a color and so are white and gray. I am including it just because. A box of crayons isn’t complete without the black crayon on it after all. The account would be incomplete if I do not include this.

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This is Harry. I got him two weeks ago.

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And this is the black bag that is intended to contain Harry while I am out and about. I know I still will be using it without Harry on it though. I got this one today.

White. I’ve already said it. This is not a color. This is so lame but I can still tell you about the box of crayons. :P
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Mushu is now extra fun to be with. He’s a sweet, sweet dog and he sure got me through the sickness I had last week.

Pink and orange.
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These are the very things that have kept me alive (pink: erithromycin, orange: biogesic). The swollen tonsils began effecting annoyance on me in the evening of June 10. Later that night, I was already having chills. I decided to go to bed hoping that it would all go away in the morning. I dreamed that I was really, really sick and when I woke up, my temperature has gone really, really high. I stayed in bed the whole day Thursday and Friday. I was only able to get out of the house on Saturday evening. I was not able to attend the leaders’ meeting and planning and was not able to sing with the team on Sunday too. The only thing I got to do was to push through with the cell group meeting I scheduled earlier in the week.

Purple and blue.
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I bought a new devotional notebook/journal yesterday and it matches my Bible. Also, I use a blue pen to write on it and a purple marker to highlight important verses on my Bible.

That would be all for now. The other colors will have to come later. I still have some work to do. ;)

Obscurity

•May 7, 2009 • Leave a Comment

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Distorted realities.

Unlikely realizations.

Broken trusts.

Relationships examined.

Lines drawn.

Bridges crossed.

And some bridges,

they will have to be burned.

Under Construction, I am

•April 16, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Yet, O LORD, you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand.

~Isaiah 64:8~

Every human being is God’s workmanship. Everything in me is His.

I took a temperament quiz earlier today. It had 5 questions on it. I took it even though I already had an idea what the result would be. I guess I just needed something to back that particular knowledge up.


You Have a Choleric Temperament


You are a person of great enthusiasm – easily excited by many things.Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.

You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.

Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.

You’re an instantly passionate person – and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.

Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.

A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

Temperament quiz results may define who you are in the flesh, but they should not define who you are in Christ. As long as we are in our human form, there will always be imperfections. Scripture likens us to clay – formless – until the Potter takes us and molds us into something beautiful, useful.

When you get to know yourself better, you will find it easy to harness your strengths and slowly have your weaknesses eliminated. Of course, it wouldn’t be that easy. And it would take some time. Actually, it would take your entire lifetime. When people would look at you and wonder why you aren’t the person you are supposed to be in Christ, remember that God is not yet finished with you.

God is not yet finished with me. I am, as of the moment, still under construction.

Reflections (on Ezekiel Chapter 4)

•April 15, 2009 • Leave a Comment

“3…turn your face toward it. It will be under siege, and you shall besiege it. This will be a sign to the house of Israel.”
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The promise of revival is true. The harvest is plentiful. There are a lot of people waiting for answers and explanations. The people of the Lord are supposed to be reaching the lost. But only a few are willing to forsake their own desires to join the others in working for the cause of Christ.

I have often prayed that God would grant me that unwavering passion for God and compassion for people. As of the moment, I believe that what I have just isn’t enough. I am not yet bold enough to face rejection. I am not yet courageous enough to just bring the Gospel into conversations with unbelievers. I am not being who I’m supposed to be and I apparently am not doing what I’m supposed to do. And then God gives me this: “..being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus(Philippians 1:6).”

Of this I am sure, it is only by the grace of God  that I will be able to do what He wants me to do. As of the moment, I shall be holding on to the fact that because I have surrendered myself to Him, He will use whatever He finds in me for His glory and for His purpose.

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•March 31, 2009 • Leave a Comment
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•March 30, 2009 • Leave a Comment

I came up with this song on Saturday night (March 28). It was one of those times when I felt really exhausted and depressed. The week was a tough one as it made me face the realities of life… and death. I still do not know what to call this song but it is, in itself, complete. I cannot just yet post the recorded version but I will do sometime soon.

In the darkness
You are my light
and knowing that You’re here with me
I know I can always stand secure

In pain and sorrow
You are my strength
and knowing that You’re here with me
I know I can always stand and fight

Pre-chorus:

I will stand and fight the fight of faith
and though I know it won’t be easy
I will cling unto Your promise
that You will never, ever leave me

Chorus:

I will run and not grow tired
I will walk and not be faint
I will soar on wings like eagles
And I will never be afraid
I will put my hope in You
Knowing that Your Word is truth
I am strong when I’m at my weakest
‘Coz Lord I know Your love is there to see me through

Bridge:

Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
There is none that I will fear
For You make my paths clear

It’s Square Root Day Today!

•March 3, 2009 • 2 Comments

Square root day is a humorous holiday celebrated on dates where the day and the month are both the square root of the last two digits in the current year.[1] For example, the last square root day was February 2, 2004 (2/2/04), and the next square root day will be March 3, 2009 (3/3/09). The final square root day of the century will occur on September 9, 2081.

One suggested way of celebrating the holiday is by eating square radishes, or other root vegetables cut into shapes with square cross sections.

Full list of holidays

* 1/1/01
* 2/2/04
* 3/3/09
* 4/4/16
* 5/5/25
* 6/6/36
* 7/7/49
* 8/8/64
* 9/9/81

Reference: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Square_root_day

(Well, what do you know? I never knew such “humorous” celebration exists until today.)

The Choice is Yours

•February 20, 2009 • Leave a Comment

An officemate shared this beautiful prose to me early this morning and I just can’t help but post it for everybody else to read.  So, here it is.

He placed one scoop of clay upon another until a form lay lifeless on
the ground.

All of the Garden’s inhabitants paused to witness the event. Hawks
hovered. Giraffes stretched. Trees bowed. Butterflies paused on petals
and watched.

“You will love me, nature,” God said. “I made you that way. You will
obey me, universe. For you were designed to do so. You will reflect my
glory, skies, for that is how you were created. But this one will be
like me. This one will be able to choose.”

All were silent as the Creator reached into himself and removed
something yet unseen. A seed. “it’s called ‘choice.’ The seed of choice.”

Creation stood in silence and gazed upon the lifeless form.

An angel spoke, “But what if he …”

“What if he chooses not to love?” the Creator finished. “Come, I will
show you.”

Unbound by today, God and the angel walked into the realm of tomorrow.

“There, see the fruit of the seed of choice, both the sweet and the
bitter.”

The angel gasped at what he saw. Spontaneous love. Voluntary devotion.
Chosen tenderness. Never had he seen anything like these. He felt the
love of the Adams. He heard the joy of Eve and her daughters. He saw
the food and the burdens shared. He absorbed the kindness and marveled
at the warmth.

“Heaven has never seen such beauty, my Lord. Truly, this is your
greatest creation.”

“Ah, but you’ve only seen the sweet. Now witness the bitter.”

A stench enveloped the pair. The angel turned in horror and
proclaimed, “What is it?”

The Creator spoke only one word: “Selfishness. “

The angel stood speechless as they passed through centuries of
repugnance. Never had he seen such filth. Rotten hearts. Ruptured
promises. Forgotten loyalties. Children of the creation wandering
blindly in lonely labyrinths.

“This is the result of choice? the angel asked.

“Yes.”

“They will forget you?”

“Yes.”

“They will reject you?”

“Yes.”

“They will never come back?”

“Some will. Most won’t.”

“What will it take to make them listen?”

The Creator walked on in time, further and further into the future,
until he stood by a tree. A tree that would be fashioned into a
cradle. Even then he could smell the hay that would surround him.

With another step into the future, he paused before another tree. It
stood alone, a stubborn ruler on a bald hill. The trunk was thick, and
the wood was strong. Soon it would be cut. Soon it would be trimmed.
Soon it would be mounted on the stony brow of another hill. And soon
he would be hung on it.

He felt the wood rub against a back he did not yet wear.

“Will you go down there?” the angel asked.

“I will.”

“Is there no other way?”

“There is not.”

“Wouldn’t it be easier to not plant the seed? Wouldn’t it be easier to not give the choice?”

“It would,” the Creator spoke slowly. “But to remove the choice is to
remove the love.”

He look around the hill and foresaw a scene. Three figures hung on
three crosses. Arms spread. Heads fallen forward. They moaned with the
wind.

Men clad in soldier’s garb sat on the ground near the trio. They
played games in the dirt and laughed.

Men clad in religion stood off to one side. They smiled. Arrogant,
cocky. They had protected God, they thought by killing this false one.

Women clad in sorrow huddled at the foot of the hill. Speechless.
Faces tear streaked. Eyes downward. One put her arm around another and
tried to lead her away. She wouldn’t leave. “I will stay,” she said
softly, “I will stay.”

All heaven stood to fight. All nature rose to rescue. All eternity
poised to protect. But the Creator gave no command.

“It must be done…,” he said, and withdrew.

But as he stepped in time, he heard the cry that he would someday
scream: “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” He wrenched at
tomorrow’s agony.

The angel spoke again. “It would be less painful…”

The Creator interrupted softly. “But it wouldn’t be love.”

They stepped into the Garden again. The Maker looked earnestly at the
clay creation. A monsoon of love swelled up within him. He had died
for the creation before he had made him. God’s form bent over the
sculptured face and breathed. Dust stirred on the lips of the new one.
The chest rose, cracking the red mud. The cheeks fleshened. A finger
moved. And an eye opened.

But more incredible than the moving of the flesh was the stirring of
the spirit. Those who could see the unseen gasped.

Perhaps it was the wind who said it first. Perhaps what the star saw
that moment is what has made it blink ever since. Maybe it was left to
an angel to whisper it:

“It looks like … it appears to so much like … it is him!”

The angel wasn’t speaking of the face, the features, or the body. He
was looking inside – at the soul.

“It’s eternal!” gasped another.

***
Within the man, God has placed a divine seed. A seed of his self (A
seed of choice). The God of might had created earth’s mightiest… And the One who had chosen to love had created one who could love in return.
Now it’s our choice…